i’ve got a hold of different realities
Carmelo Barrera Cruz
i’ve got a hold of different realities
and i can influence them in different ways
there is this concept of being white
while being brown: being whitewashed
“a coconut,” i’ve heard someone describe it.
is it whiteness? is it assimilation?
maybe it’s our learned behaviors from how
white people responded to our actions/words
and we’ve shrunk ourselves for others’ comfort.
i have to negotiate my white and Mexican side
because one side
desires to be selfish
and the other
puede amar y enseñar
my white side concerns itself with what people think
with people pleasing
by thinking about making the most money
with living a life
a life that contradicts every aspect of who I am
my brown side cares about la Gente, the people.
about healing la Herida, the Wound.
about explorando el Mundo, meeting Nature.
about learning and expanding la consciencia,
creating Awareness.
una vida de Aprendizaje, a life around a New Understanding.